Hi!
I just wanted to post for anyone who is reading out there. I am still alive and well.
I have been wanting to update here for a while now, with something meaningful and insightful, but at the moment I am lacking the (mental/emotional?) energy.
Almost every time I take a step in my journey with this I feel that I then have to pull back for a while, even when I write. I almost feel like I take one step forward and two back some times. It's frustrating, but I also think it's necessary for my well being. It's emotionally draining to write here at times, although at the same time I love it and appreciate communicating with people who I would normally have the chance.
So this is not a good bye by any means, just a 'hello' and 'be with you shortly' post.
I'm still reading, thinking, learning and growing.
And I will be back soon, when my heart and soul are ready for more.
Oh, and just something in the mean time that I can share for now; I told my dad about the whole half sibling thing the other night. After my last post I felt like i owed it to him to be honest. I feel much better now that he knows.
See you soon!
I just wanted to post for anyone who is reading out there. I am still alive and well.
I have been wanting to update here for a while now, with something meaningful and insightful, but at the moment I am lacking the (mental/emotional?) energy.
Almost every time I take a step in my journey with this I feel that I then have to pull back for a while, even when I write. I almost feel like I take one step forward and two back some times. It's frustrating, but I also think it's necessary for my well being. It's emotionally draining to write here at times, although at the same time I love it and appreciate communicating with people who I would normally have the chance.
So this is not a good bye by any means, just a 'hello' and 'be with you shortly' post.
I'm still reading, thinking, learning and growing.
And I will be back soon, when my heart and soul are ready for more.
Oh, and just something in the mean time that I can share for now; I told my dad about the whole half sibling thing the other night. After my last post I felt like i owed it to him to be honest. I feel much better now that he knows.
See you soon!
7 comments:
Needing a break is totally understandalbe! I'm glad everything is OK.
Way to go talking to your dad too. I bet it feels good to have things out in the open.
Take care Rel! Hope to hear from you soon but enjoy your time off!!!
Thank Mia :)
it feels great having things out in the open, for sure.
You too! I shall return soon. Uni work is also piling up, so we will see how i go. xo
Hi Rel...I came across your website while I was reading Buffalo Gals blog. She had made some posts on the Family Scholar Blog and my interest in the subject of donor conception was peaked. As a social worker here in Wisconsin, USA who has been involved with a number of children whose parents parental rights were terminated, I know that the vast majority of children always want to know where they came from. Call it an innate desire but, like you, I think there are universal questions asked by everyone...who am I, where did I come from, why am I here and where am I going...I believe you will find what you seek. It may take a lifetime but those half-siblings are out there.
I personally believe donating ones genetic material to create another life somehow immoral and irresponsible. I try to keep an open mind but when I read stories such as yours and others who were donor conceived, it reinforces those notions. I personally wouldn't ever donate because I would always wonder if the person produced was okay. I would feel "linked" to them and have a need to know about them. Call it a head game, but I like to think of it as being "parental". I also happen to think it is just being responsible for the child created who is a part of me. Some might say it is just selfishness. I think not.
I wish you well in your search and educational endeavor (a good field to enter!). I can just imagine all the possible areas you might consider for internship or job prospects.
I'm an adoptee and write a blog that details the uphill struggle I experienced trying to find out who I really was. Sometimes I also need a break from writing. Hope you keep going and I'll make a link to you.
Hi Leroy,
Thanks so much for your support and kind words!
"I personally believe donating ones genetic material to create another life somehow immoral and irresponsible... I also happen to think it is just being responsible for the child created who is a part of me." - Thank you! So do i! And i totally agree about being responsible. It's not selfish at all, to me it's right.
Thanks again :)
Hi Peter,
Great to hear from another adoptee. Your story sounds heartbreaking and inspiring at the same time. I like the journal title a lot!
By the way, i noticed you are a philosopher. I am studying a subject called "philosophy and happiness" this semseter and loving it. Although some comments that my lecturer has made about my innate sense to know myself have been a little upsetting. Perhaps we can chat about this more in the future.
I will link you also!
Hey Rel, an article I thought you might just want to comment on;
http://www.guardian.co.uk/g2/story/0,,1746867,00.html
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